This morning I was looking at my calendar, and I flipped one page only to discover that I am “one page” (ie. one month) away from December. This almost took my breath away. I am running a marathon in just over 4 weeks from now. This is almost terrifies me half to death!!
When we got to Texas, I heard others talking about the Dallas Marathon, and I was so excited to start training for it. I signed up immediately, and began training early. I am following the running schedule posted here. I have found that even on the hottest Texas run, I would never wish to be back in China (Dongying) doing that run, because it is so much cleaner and more comfortable here. I have access to running supplements, and I can eat whatever I need to so that I fuel my runs properly. In China, this was a huge problem.
However, even though I am in a better running position here, I have had to face numerous distractions. We have a wedding in just over 3 months. I have been out and about experiencing new things ~ this is great, but it has left less time for training. Then there is the family time that we have been craving, and also the church gatherings and premarital course that we are doing. We have been much busier than we ever were in China. I thought that I would find people to train with here but I have not been very successful with that. To be honest, at the moment, I feel that I will not be able to complete a full marathon. I am not sure if my current marathon doubts hold any ground though. Perhaps this is just nerves. I am trying to work on being more confident in my expectations…
Tomorrow I need to run 32km (20 miles) and I am very nervous. I shouldn’t be. I mean, it’s not the marathon, so it shouldn’t really matter, but to me it does. If I can’t make it through this run ~ I seriously doubt I will make it through the whole marathon. About two weeks ago I ran around White Rock Lake twice, but at the end I was completely wiped out. I felt like a failure because that was only 30kms. That run made me very nervous about my current abilities. I thought that I would be able to handle it better.
I have been carbo-loading and keeping hydrated this weekend, and I hope that this run is more manageable. I’m not expecting it to be easy, but I don’t want to feel like I did last time I did two loops around the lake.
Think of me tomorrow… I will be running for about 3.5 hours.
I will let you all know how it goes.