When I was younger it was always completely obvious to me what I wanted to do “when I grew up”. As a little girl I treated my youngest brother like my own baby, pushing him around in a pram that was meant for my dolls. I loved to play house, and to pretend that my dolls were real babies. I never liked, or had, any Barbies because I felt no desire to play with fully grown women. I only wanted to play with the babies, because that seemed more real to me.
In years gone by, when people asked what I wanted to do with my life, I wasn’t afraid to say that I wanted to be a mother and a wife. But as time passed, and expectations were placed on me, I started to search for other things to say… Maybe I wanted to be a lawyer. Or a doctor. Perhaps even a photographer. All of those things were in my reach, but none of them made me feel any passion inside. Yet, anytime I thought of being a wife and a mother I felt my heart melt, because THAT is what I always knew I wanted to be! Of course I would need to find my independence in things that I am good at, and I honestly feel that I HAVE done that. I finished my law degree (even though I’m not currently using it), I love painting and taking pictures, and I now know that I can be a really great teacher! I know that I can run, that I can workout and motivate people, and also that I love blogging and would love to make money doing this, if the opportunity arose. Despite now knowing that I can, and have, been able to do all of these things… I still haven’t been able to complete the one thing that I ALWAYS wanted to do.
In a few days I will be getting to most AMAZING JOB in the world. The job that I have wanted since before I can even remember. I cannot express how much joy this brings me, and how happy I am to finally feel like I have everything that I have ever wanted! Baby Eli might not be in my arms yet, but he is in my heart and Justin and I are extremely excited to finally be able to look at him. From the moment that I fell in love with Justin, four years ago, I have known that this is the man that I want everything with. This is the man that I want to spend forever with. Our journey together has been has been indescribable, and I wouldn’t change a single minute that I have spent with him. I love that we just work, and that we have a deep understanding of how we should treat each other. I love that we barely ever fight, and that we truly do understand each other. As if being blessed with all of that isn’t enough, I now get to have his baby… and to look at the two of them, and know…
This is it!!!
This is what I have waited for my whole life!