Off He Goes: Exam Time
For the last year, Justin has been studying. We thought that him getting a teaching qualification would be a smart move, for the future of our family. Although we knew that he would need to go home to complete his qualification, exam time rolled around really quickly! Since the year basically flew by, and suddenly it was time to book his ticket, we didn’t think that the goodbyes would be that bad. In fact, when he woke me at 5am this morning, to say goodbye, I wasn’t even too sad.
Last night we stayed up late, packing and just…. wasting time. We were both tired, but knowing that he needed to leave just after 5am, we both didn’t want to go to bed. Going to sleep meant that the morning would come quicker.
With me working as much as I have been, we haven’t been spending as much quality time together. I’m gone all day on Saturdays, so we haven’t been spending much weekend time together. I started thinking about this, as we lay there this morning, hanging onto our last few minutes together. And then suddenly, it was like floodgates opened! I felt overcome with sadness. It suddenly sunk in that I wouldn’t see my love for 9 days.
9 DAYS. That’s it… 9 days!
But I can’t even stand that we don’t go to work together everyday anymore… so IMAGINE what nine days feels like. We have, however, done this before, and we will have to do it again. That doesn’t, however, make it any easier. The truth is this: We HATE being apart, and no matter how long – or short – the separation is, we just don’t like it.
We said our goodbyes, with tears flowing heavy, and then I watched Justin go. Eli was still asleep, so Justin had said goodbye to him last night at bedtime. We aren’t even sure if Eli understands what we were explaining to him. I don’t think that he does.
Justin walked to the top of the final stairs case, and then just stood there, wiping his eyes.
Geez… you would think we were separating for MONTHS. We were both… A MESS!
When Justin was in the car, and out of sight, I went back to bed. I assumed that Eli would call me at any moment, but he didn’t… so I drifted back off to sleep. At 8:20am, I woke up and went to see why little man hadn’t yet called for me. I found him lying quietly in his bed. Seems he was tired, like me.
We did a video call with Justin, and Eli didn’t seem too bothered at all. I’m pretty sure that he assumed that Justin was at work. Above right, Justin giving Eli a kiss. You can only see part of Eli’s eyebrow because he kisses the screen, not the camera.
SO FREAKING CUTE!!!
Eli and I read some books, played, and then did a few things around the house. Before I knew it, it was lunch time. Although I had been chatting to Justin, I didn’t really feel like he was leaving China. It started to just feel like he had gone to work (after the tears had stopped).
Little man and I went down to the baozi store and ate there. He is really such a good boy. I love this stage that he is in. He sits next to me, listens so well, and eats his food without any assistance needed. After lunch I bought him an ice cream. I really didn’t want to go home yet. I needed more distraction, so we walked for a while.
Oh my gosh – I am so excited to get a new phone.
Look how awful the quality of above picture is! We have been saving for new phones, and Justin will be bringing them back to Qingdao with him. A trip to the States means we are able to buy things we can’t/ don’t want to buy here. Like phones, good deodorant, Dayquil, liquid foundation and running socks. haha – the list is completely random!
After we had played for a while, we sat in the shade, under a big pagoda. Eli sat next to me, holding my hand, and even though I was missing Justin… my heart was full. Although he has always been my little cuddle bug, when we are outside, he is always running off. Lately, he has stopped that, and I am LOVING EVERY SECOND of this. I no longer have to cling to him, worrying if he will run into the road. Of course, he still has a way to go, but he is listening and obeying more. I love this new understanding he has. Proud Mama!
The rest of the afternoon flew by. Justin video called me a couple of times, and one last time as he boarded his long flight (14 hours). I was surprisingly lonely tonight. I never get lonely. Gosh, I love alone time. But tonight, I was lonely! I put Eli to bed around 7pm, and then I realized that our apartment is MASSIVE! The first night is usually the hardest. I know that the eight after this one will get easier.
Gosh – I am useless at this!