I never imagined that from the very first weeks we spent with Elijah, I would already start thinking, “It’s all happening too fast”. I wish that I could slow down time so that I could soak it all in properly. Sometimes I have to drop everything that I am doing and go lie on the ground with him, play with him, laugh with him, and hold him. He’s only five months old, but already I feel like he’s growing up too fast. All those years that I waited to become a mother – I never imagined that only five months into being one, I would already be thinking, “slow down sweet baby”. Each week I see him doing something new, and it just blows my mind how quickly he changes and how fast he learns. I try not to push him to do anything. I want him to grow and develop at his own pace, and truthful, the longer he stays immobile the better! In January I will be flying alone to South Africa with him. I don’t know what he will be like once he gets moving, but right now he’s only starting to move and he is pretty determined. I love watching him trying to crawl. Last month he was lifting himself off the ground a little more each week, and this month he is putting one knee under his body. I’d be happy if he didn’t crawl for a couple more months, so I’m not going to help him along (haha, I know how things change when babies get mobile). When he’s ready, he’ll crawl, but for now I like knowing that he can only get as far as he can “worm”.
Yes… although he hasn’t yet started crawling, he somehow wriggles and rolls far away from his play-mat. A couple of times I have heard his head knock the ground as he rolls off the mat. Our apartment has wooden floors, so once he leaves the play-mat, he’s onto the hard floor. I have tried laying rugs and mats down, but he moves beyond those too. While I am doing a 30 minute run on my treadmill, he will often move completely off his play-mat and then get frustrated that he has no toys around him. Silly monkey! As you can see in the pictures below, he’s in the middle of the floor with no play-mat and no toys. Now that our Christmas tree is up, he likes to move towards that!
Watching Elijah grow is both fascinating and painful at the same time. I so much want him to stay a baby forever. I want to be able to keep him small so that he’ll always need cuddles and kisses. However, at the same time, I love watching him learn new things. I love the new sounds and the wide array of facial expressions as he reacts to new developments. Every single day that we have with him is a blessing, and I am so thankful for this opportunity to be his mother. Justin and I love every little sweet thing that he does, and even though we have experienced only a fraction of what we will experience with him, it is already all so incredibly special. I wish that I could slow it all down, but I can’t so for now I’ll have to just appreciate every day. Every smile. Every slobbery kiss.