My sweet little boy. I simply don’t have the right words to describe what you mean to me and your father. There aren’t enough words in the world to capture how much we love you. You are incredible. People all around us, family and friends, say “he absolutely melts my heart”, and all I can do is smile. You have such an amazing presence. I felt it even for you were born. Somehow, you are exactly how I knew you would be. You are destined for great things my sweet boy!
I say it over and over again but the months keep flying by faster and faster. I blinked and suddenly you’re this amazing little BOY. My heart ached when we cut off your gorgeous golden curls, but now I love your side-swept haircut. Your hair now perfectly compliments that delightfully angelic face of yours. Looking into your big blue eyes is like staring at the ocean. I often put down what I am doing so that I can gaze into your eyes for a moment or two. I want to soak up that incredible beauty, and admire everything that God created in you.
You are such a kind little boy, with a flawless ability to share his toys. I’ve seen a toy being taken away from you many times, and you simply turn to find another one. At times I have wondered if you will later be bullied for your generous heart. Since you’re such an easy-going little boy my mama heart aches when I see others take advantage of your loving soul. You are so darn special, kid.
Your laid-back independence is noticed by all. We are often amazed at how you can keep yourself busy for hours. Only stopping to come over to give us a little hug around the neck, or take a quick sip of water. A second later you are off again, to pick up a dinosaur or animal.
You are convinced that you can swim Elijah. I’m often amazed at how you run towards the ocean with such determination and might. You would scale rocks, and dive straight into the water if I let you. As brave as you are around water, you are very cautious when playing. Even now, you will go down to your hands and knees to go down a step if it looks too high. You’re not into climbing or jumping, but tunnels, forts and caves are just your thing! As cautious as you are when we are out, you run with a kind of reckless abandonment that I have never seen before. Even though I cringe, it is really cute to watch you run like there is no tomorrow.
In many ways I see so much of myself in you. I understand your independent play, and lack of interest in joining group songs and activities. Even as an adult, I find myself shying away from these situations and wishing I could be off to the side doing my own thing. I like people around me, but I often don’t want to join the games. This is you, through and through. When we do make it to playgroups, you are off to the side, playing with a puzzle or some magnets on a board. I too, am sitting a little further away from the rest, observing and being present, but still very much on my own. It amazes me how much you are like both your daddy and I. You really are the cutest combination of the two of us.
There is an unbelievable flood of euphoria when you see one of us, and then start running as fast as your little legs will carry you. Your arms lift up into the air, your mouth opens wide, and a joy seems to shine from every inch of you. In those seconds, we will drop low to the ground, and open our arms, ready to receive your sweet hug. I wish I could tell you how amazing those hugs are to us. Your hugs are like the sweetest honey. I am reminded of what a blessing you are in our life when you lay your head on my shoulder, and rub my neck.
You carry a small toy, sometimes, two, wherever you go. At meals, your right hand will be on your lap, holding a toy, while the left hand feeds you. You will sometimes allow us to take the toy from your hand, but only if said animal can join us for dinner, standing next to your plate. Oh how amusing and cute this is to us!
When we enter your room after you’ve woken up, we absolutely love the look on your face as we open the door and light falls onto your face. The joy in your smile is amazing. We are filled with a unique happiness as you reach your arms up towards us. If we have made you wait too long, you will shrug your shoulders and give us a mouthful, “Da didi dado do dee”. Your hands out to the sides, you seem to questions us on why the heck we took so long to get upstairs to your room. The truth is that you are such a good boy, and we are often not sure how many hours you have been awake, playing quietly in your bed. Could you be more amazing?
Even at two you love to fall asleep in my arms and your cuddles are one of my most favorite things in the world. Although an impeccable sleeper, sometimes you just want to be held while you fall into slumber. These are happy moments for me. I love the way you rest your head on my shoulder, and wrap your arms around my neck. I love how we have had to change this positioning as you have grown. From a little babe, fitting completely on one of my arms, you are now so long that your feet touch my thighs when I hold you.
You love to go outside. I don’t think that anything makes you happier than playing with sticks and rocks. Lately you love it so much that almost every play session outside ends in tears. You just can’t stand that we have to go inside when you are having such a good time exploring. I love seeing you covered in dirt. For some odd reason, the mud on your face and knees shows me that you are having a good time. Never are there so many tears from you, as while you are being dragged from your rocks and sticks. I am sure they you will love all of the adventures that your father and I have in mind for you, when you are just a little bit older.
There have been a lot of “we hope it’s just a phase” moments lately. Sleep, behavior, and attitude have all had their ups and downs as you’ve neared toddlerhood. Your daddy and I keep reminding ourselves that, with you, we always go back to “Elijah”, and even though you may go through changes, we know who you are and you always return to your same ways.
If I could sum you up in one word it’d be incredible. Incredibly sweet, incredibly loving, incredibly adorable, incredibly perfect and incredibly loved. You’re one of a kind and I thank my lucky stars each and every day that you’re mine. Being your mommy is such a blessing. I love you sweetheart.
Happy Birthday Eli!